It's been days since i struggled over the thoughts.
A normal person starts his/her day at 8am in the morning and end works at 5pm or 6pm. (or sometimes work overtime till about 8 or 9pm.) Earns about $3000/month. Leads a normal lifestyle.
Me? I belong to the "Normal" Catergory just minus the fact that my pay is not that level yet. yes unfortunately. Here i am in my very comfortable zone yet challenging myself with the "is this what i really want?" question. Funny isnt it?
I slogged my days away trying to excel in my work and struggle to juggle between school and work. Just like some of my peers. But i know this is not what i want. It's not an exiciting lifestyle that i want. Not the glamarous and fun life that i looked forward. In fact, it's completely the opposite of what i'm looking forward.
I know i need a change. But like anyone out there, i'm afraid of changes. I'm afraid of instability. Im afraid of rocking the boat when all seems to be okay now.
I struggle to sort my thoughts out, to lay my points out and decide on what i really want. And i finally decided to take this chance. It's a turning point, and i've finally decided to take this chance and put away the worries that i have in mind. It's a chance to shorten my route to achieve my goals. Yes i know i want it. It's calling out to me. Yes i know i will change my future to a better one.
But before today, I was helpless. I can't seems to have the enough courage to step out of this comfort zone. All i want is the courage and support that i can have from whatever forces.
But now, i'm clear of what i want. My direction is determine and i am going to make it happen. It's gonna be doubly good. It's going to be towards a better future.
I am going to make it happen. And im looking forward to gathering the fruits of my labour.
I have faith.***********
it's from within this time round. I'm following my heart to wherever it takes me. Is the courage and the enlightenment that i've gotten from you my lady. Thank you. Labels: reflections
